Writing
As a Writer...
It took me a really long time to identify as a writer despite having this incredible desire to articulate myself and my ideas. By continuing to write I have realized that what I do is make people think, self-reflect, question, and become more self-aware. I also remind people of what they already know. My writing is often reflective of my own experiences in life as I go through aiming to be a better person myself. My writing serves as an invitation for self-exploration with the comfort of knowing no one is alone.
Excerpts from Book in Progress
Blogs
Neuroscience Blog
I am the Founding CEO of Centre for Applied Neuroscience (CAN). Our mission is to make neuroscience more accessible to so you CAN know your brain! In addition to running courses, coaching one-on-one, we also have a library with a blog and videos. I do most of the writing but also have some of my students write for me too. You can also visit my company blog at KnowYourBrain.ca.
I went to dinner with my former PhD supervisor and her lab. It was so refreshing being back in that intellectual space among people sharing their topics of study. I was particularly happy to be in the presence of my former supervisor, Lisa. I thoroughly enjoyed my time with her and all of the research I had done in her lab. She was an incredible mentor, scientist, and friend. She supported my productivity in many ways, including emotionally by being passionate about research herself and physically with lots of hired technical support. She really was my perfect supervisor and I couldn’t have asked for anything better.
Such a hot topic! And probably not going away anytime soon. Likewise in hotness is neurogenesis, the adult brain’s capacity to grow new brain cells, known as neurons. These two phenomena collide in a wonderful way to suggest that exercising is great for our brains and our memory!
Neurogenesis has been noted in several brain regions but of particular interest to me (and other behavioural neuroscientists) is that there is a hot bed of new neuron growth in the hippocampus, an area that of the brain that has a very important role in memory. Typically, things that increase neurogenesis tend to correlate with increased memory and those that decrease neurogenesis tends to have a negative effect on memory. There are a few exceptions to this, which I hope to discuss in an upcoming post on hyper-plastic brains, but for now, a simple way of noting the relationship between neurogenesis and memory is that increase equals increase and vice versa.
A few months ago I found myself in a conversation with my brother about the game Grand Theft Auto. Until that point my only experience with it was through the advertising campaign that plagued the billboards of Toronto in anticipation of it’s release. This naiveness didn’t stop me from having an opinion that I proceeded to impart upon my brother. But before I went too far, I stopped and ask him what it was like. “Is it all just about killing people?” I asked. “No, no, I mean ya you kill people but they come back to life and sometimes you just kill your friends because it’s funny.”
Saturday morning at SfN14 I went to a refreshing session in the “Meet the Expert” series with Dr. Julie Fiez. She was discussing how she came to find herself embedded within the scientific culture of “educational neuroscience”. In describing the field of study she talked about a bridge that needed to be formed with neuroscience, cognitive neuroscience, cognitive science, and education science in order to really drive the field of educational neuroscience. Several pieces caught my immediate attention, including the big “so what?” question that many of us neuroscientists face (whether we know it or not). “So what if the brain lights up here?” “So what if there is brain activity over there when we do this or that?” “So what if the brain changes over time or with age or during different cognitive tasks or with learning?” The answer that many of us basic researchers thrives off of...
Science can baffle even scientists with its incredible technological power. Imagine being able to control your own brain by simply shining a light into it. All of a sudden you might feel particularly sexual or defensive or aggressive or creative or loving. This may not be possible with humans YET but some of that has been demonstrated in laboratory animals using a technique called “optogenetics”, which was the buzz word at dinners, coffee breaks, and lectures that I was at last week at the Society for Neuroscience Annual Meeting.
Optogenetics is a technique that allows researchers to very discretely control activity within single brain cells of living brain tissue.
Imagine being accused of murder and being able to blame your brain? Imagine, perhaps, you committed the crime but don’t totally remember it. You were, of course, in a fit of rage because you came home and found your spouse in bed with another person. In hindsight, of course, you know that it was wrong but at the time, you were blinded by rage and barely even felt conscious while doing it. Perhaps the head injury that you suffered from the car accident a few months before, an incident that left you never feeling the same, contributed to your rage. Perhaps, it wasn’t the car accident but, instead, it was your upbringing, the horrific experiences you endured because of an abusive parent. Perhaps you inherited experiences from your mother orfather. Could you blame your brain?
Last night I was out with one of my favorite characters from Dalhousie, and I say “character” because that’s exactly what she is. Rahia is creative, funny, outspoken, and has a great scientific mind. Rahia is also currently a PhD student at Columbia University in New York (http://champagnelab.psych.columbia.edu/rahia.html).
Over (great) beer at this off-the-beaten-path bar, Downtown Johnny Brown’s, Rahia was telling me about her research on the transmission of experiences from fathers, via epigenetic mechanisms to the offspring (see previous post:http://mandywintink.blogspot.com/2012/11/epigenetics-stress-science-review-part-1.html). That in itself is interesting but what was of particular interest -- both to me that night and to Rahia for the past year as she slaved away in the lab -- was whether or not the mothers could regulate the expression of the fathers experiences in utero such that it would change the fate of the offspring. Indeed, Rahia’s data suggest that moms can! As Rahia put it, it’s like the mom looks at the dad and say “You sucks” and then compensates for that dad inadequacies!
I just heard an amazing talk by Ed Catmull, co-founder of Pixar and president of Disney. After Pixar became a success and went public (a 20-year goal they had) he asked himself, “what’s next?” and came up with the idea that he wanted to make creativity sustainable. His thinking about it lead to several concepts that he now claims blocks creativity. He has come to believe that facilitating creativity is about removing the barriers to creativity rather than being more creative.
Not feeling able to be honest or candid was one of those barriers.
Fertility, Pregnancy, Birth, & Baby Blog
Getting pregnant, being pregnant, and planning for a birth has been an experience all on its own and worthy of a whole separate narrative and commentary. That's what I offer in this blog, filled with personal experience, science, and things to think about.
It’s not that often that I feel silenced and unable to speak up, but lately, I have been. I have been reticent with my excitement about giving birth, going into labour, and for all of the experiences that are to arise as a result.
“Do you know if it’s a boy or a girl?” An obvious question these days to most people who are curious about the child I am incubating. The curiosity is appreciated on my part, in fact. I like to talk about being pregnant and generally enjoy talking about human experiences, mine or yours! But the question itself is somewhat flawed with the belief that I would in anyway be able to tell what the gender of our baby is without having even met the child first.
I’m not one who typically rides the fence. I like to take a stance and then argue adamantly for my point. However, today, I’m not here to promote vaccinations or anti-vaccines. Sorry to those for whom that is an interest. I’m writing to raise an issue regarding the ability and tolerance around thinking critically about vaccines. Vaccines is not a black and white issue and yet there are not enough meaningful conversations happening around the topic when there should be.
Instead of meaningful conversations with people seeking to understand the nature of vaccines and vaccination choices, there are emotional opinions on both sides, which, from what I have witnessed, often leads to name calling and silencing of critical thinking.
Home births are a controversial topic among many people who care about birth. Personally, I have had conversations about this with all sorts of people including obstetricians, midwives, doulas, women who have had home births, women who have had hospital births, (no women who have had birth centre births yet), fathers and other partners prepping for an upcoming birth, fathers and other partners who have been at their baby’s birth and some who have not, and parents, friends, siblings, and cousins of moms and moms-to-be. What strikes me most interesting in all of these conversations is the attitudes that persist and, even more interesting, is where everyone gets their attitude from. What I have noticed throughout these conversations is that attitudes vary significantly and can, at times, be predicted based on a person’s background, education, and experience. This is not that surprising given how much our attitudes formed are, in general, influenced by the environment in which we live, work, and educate ourselves.
Shampoo
1 part baking soda
3 parts water
Conditioner
1 part apple cider vinegar
3 parts water
(for long hair use 75 ml (i.e., 5 Tbsp) of baking soda/vinegar with 225 ml of water)
optional:
- for conditioner I used 2 drops of an essential oil of jasmine to get rid of the vinegar smell. Choose something you want to be smelling frequently!
- I also added some black walnut powder, which you can get it at a loose tea emporium, for a darker tone. Not sure if it helps yet but I like my hair dark… especially where there are greys!
- I plan to play with the shine a bit. I might add some avocado or beer (see below)… stay tuned!
Starting with Infrequent Washings
I’ve been toying with the idea of doing this with my hair for awhile. I have used apple cider vinegar on occasion and liked the results, but always followed it up with a real (by real I actually mean the fake, commercially available kind) conditioner. But until last night, I had not yet ventured into the baking soda. But it was December 29th and I had a few days of writing planned before a quiet new year’s of game playing with friends. My hair didn’t really matter for the next 5 days at least.
After 2 months of experiencing nausea 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, it finally broke, just like a fever does. I was standing in the kitchen and all of a sudden I felt it lift and float away. Then, I felt something so familiar and comforting that I just wanted to cry. I felt “me” again.
The feeling, as comforting as it was, didn’t last because, of course, I’m not exactly me again. “Me” is carrying another “me” inside of this body. Me is pregnant, 15 weeks as of December 15th.
This new me has already experienced many changes.
The idea of a water birth to me sounds somewhat luxurious… the idea of being immersed in warm water and a comfortable entry of the baby into this world… The only thing missing would be the warm sun shining down and a mojito at my side for when it’s all over. :)
But for some reason a water birth doesn’t quite sit well with me (yet?). Excluding the fact that I worry about my shoulders being cold or somehow getting chilled if I was in there too long, there are other factors that raise concern for me. The first of which, is that it just doesn’t seem natural to me. I haven’t heard of many women of the past intuitively running to the stream to give birth, but do correct me if I’m wrong! I seriously just haven’t heard of it (except for the first documented case of a woman in France in 1803 who, after a long exhausting birth, got into a tub of warm water (http://www.babycentre.co.uk/a542003/the-history-of-water-birth).
In November of 2012 I told my family doctor that we were starting to try to get pregnant. She immediately referred me to a local fertility clinic because of my age. I had just turned 37. My family doctor did not believe in waiting the typical 1-year trial period for someone my age. Time was of the essence. We agreed to take the referral and thought it would be a good opportunity to see if everything was working ok. I had my doubts because, well… I had been sexually active since I was 14 years old and had never gotten pregnant, EVER! I couldn’t help but wonder if I was just really smart or infertile that whole time.
Mind Body Heart Blog
I write about lots of different things but mostly my work involves some aspect of self-reflection, which serves as an invitation for readers (and myself) to better understand themselves, their minds, their brains, their behaviours, and their emotions.
There is a stigma associated with being human… and by that I mean, being emotional. Somewhere along the way we (collectively) have deluded ourselves into thinking that we (collectively) shouldn’t express our emotions, which represent fluctuations of the mind that come with having a human brain.
I have spent a great deal of my life feeling and being independent. Perhaps I was born with some sense of it but I do think that experiences in my life reinforced it as I adopted an “I can take care of myself” or “I’ll do it all alone” mentality. In many ways, this way of living and believing did work to my benefit. I feel like I have accomplished a lot and am successful in many ways, partially as a result of that strong independence.
Yesterday I was walking passed one of the latest Toronto public housing buildings in a state of partial demolish. The building was so captivating that I stopped to take a photo. I could see all of the exposed rooms painted differently reflecting the individuality of the people who inhabited those rooms not long before. As fascinating as it was to me, I couldn’t help but wonder
I have spent a great deal of my life feeling and being independent. Perhaps I was born with some sense of it but I do think that experiences in my life reinforced it as I adopted an “I can take care of myself” or “I’ll do it all alone” mentality. In many ways, this way of living and believing did work to my benefit. I feel like I have accomplished a lot and am successful in many ways, partially as a result of that strong independence.
My Ultimate (Frisbee) Blog
As a long-term ultimate (frisbee) player (and former all-round competitive athlete), I enjoy the sport psychology of playing and competing. I have worked as sport psychology trainers for a several teams and write about several aspects of playing.
My Failure Blog
Recently, I started a blog devoted to capture trials and errors. It was inspired by the many talks I have done and seen embracing failure. The missing like, I think, is the failure-as-it-happens stories. Real. Raw. Vulnerable. That's what this is suppose to be about.
A full list of Scholarly and Other Publications are available here.
Animals, including us human animals, and our sacrificial laboratory rodents, seek novelty quite innately and readily. We use a variety of mazes in the laboratory setting that rely on the a rat’s innate curiosity, which motivates them to explore and then move through its new environment. Without that curiosity it would be hard for us to provoke the rat into moving and then we could not test things like memory, motor skills, sensations, perceptions, fear, or motivation, which means we would not be able to create animal models of disorders like Alzheimer’s disease, amnesia, stroke, Parkinson’s disease, vision, smell, audition, anxiety, or depression.